Feel Reality

It’s finally starting to hit home

You can’t wait around for the perfect time to make something happen.  I’ve always had this debilitating fear of trying new things, because I didn’t feel like I had all of my ducks in a row before I jumped. For the longest time I’ve felt that financial freedom is the answer to all of my problems. If I had the money to make things happen, they would. If I had a cushion to fall back on, I wouldn’t have to fear the jump.

My mind is constantly spinning w/ new ideas. I take action on the ones that I feel are the most compelling, but I’m always abandoning concepts in search of the next great thing. I guess this is closely related to idealistic concept of money as well, the end goal is never in sight. I’m always diverging, taking the fork in the road, because the grass is always greener. 

I think that is why I started this blog and never updated it (until now).  I didn’t like the design, but I didn’t want to put money into a hobby without a monetization plan. I didn’t want to cheapen my message by plastering banner ads all over the place just to make a buck or two.  If you are shoemoney or johnchow and your ads are bringing in $25-35k a month for you, then you should keep them.  But if you’re just some random dude posting messages on shoemoney and johnchow to bring attention to your low traffic adsense pit, you just don’t get it and you look like a cheap whore. A copy of a copy of a copy isn’t going to bring the same return that the original did. Do something original.  I don’t want to learn how to make money online from a guy making $3.00 a week in adsense revenue. I guess that is a topic in itself.

Now, for the first time, the unfinished pieces of my “big idea” are starting to take shape.  I guess you could say I have a loosely formed strategy. I don’t have a particular end goal in mind. But, I do have a better concept of the direction that I want to take things in. All of the disjointed ideas and misguided adventures are slowly molding into an idea that I can stand behind. Whether that idea later becomes a book, a business or just a new philosophy, I’m not sure. What I do know is; I have finally found something(s) to believe in.

I’m slowly becoming more comfortable w/ the idea that everything that I generate doesn’t have to be in final draft form. I don’t need to refine all of the edges before I let others in on my concepts. There are millions of people out there with less experience, less know how and less business intelligence making things happen, because they don’t know any better. Sometimes knowing what you are up against, can be a bad thing.

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